I have been MIA for a variety of reasons: traveling (we are still in the United States), family drama, me getting depressed again...I do miss blogging and hope to get back to it soon, at least once the stars align/things are more settled.
I checked my blog yesterday for the first time in ages (like two weeks?) and was surprised to see a sudden spike in traffic coming from here, which is a "snark site" (ie, one that people go to to make fun of bloggers and other people).
I knew about Get Off My Internets before and have read there from time to time. It's like most Internet forums, sometimes the comments are funny and can even be impressively insightful, sometimes they are frighteningly mean spirited or mind-bogglingly idiotic. Usually it's just like gossip in real life, fundamentally petty and personal (of the "Look at that bitch eating crackers!!" variety) and ultimately reflecting mostly badly on the person saying it.
Anyway, I was initially kind of excited to realize that strangers were having a discussion nitpicking me and my blog. I love constructive criticism (how else am I going to improve? obviously I think I am doing exactly the right thing already, or I wouldn't be doing it). Also, while I don't have any kind of disorder or diagnosable problem, sometimes social cues are a bit hard for me, like the things that most people assume as standard, instinctive knowledge aren't that way for me. I tend to have a kind of list in my head of "things you are supposed to do/say" to guide me in the socially appropriate path. Even so, I will often come out with statements that kind of surprise people or take them aback (though as I've gotten older this happens a lot less often, thank goodness). It's not even things that are offensive, more like talking about how I really want to own a mobility scooter so I can spend longer at the museum without getting tired (which is apparently weird: I thought it sounded really practical). Basically my assumptions about what's normal or average or transparently obvious are just really different from most people's (and I think being an expat doesn't help, at least in an American context). So getting feedback from other people is more important to me than it might be for more socially tuned in types.
I was pretty disappointed with the outcome so far though (of course I read all the stuff about me, there's no way I could resist the temptation!). They did mention that I am socially awkward, which yes (see above), although what to do about it I don't know. Most of the other comments weren't useful, like saying I am mean for saying Singapore isn't cool (I mean, really??? Even Singaporeans think it isn't cool) or that because I dislike it when my child is ill, I shouldn't have any others (what a weird thing to say).
I know that some of the opinions I've written here are strange, controversial or not socially acceptable. But I'm not interested in presenting "an edited representation" of myself where I make myself and my life look impressive and approval-worthy (as was suggested by a GOMI person). For me, the point of having a semi-anonymous blog is 1. to be honest about my feelings/thoughts/opinions and 2. to discuss them with those who are willing or interested.
So if you have feedback, let me know. Maybe I will even learn something? I know I can certainly stand improvement :)